I think writing my last post helped me decide how I wanted to spend today. I'm feeling pretty relaxed and not fidgety yet. Mom and I finished the cookies tonight! I haven't wrapped all the presents yet, but that's okay! There's still one more day til Christmas!
And last night was wonderful! As I was checking my email when I was getting ready to leave work last night, there was one from a local aquarium who had checked out my website and loved it! Wheeee! There's nothing like a totally unexpected compliment to make a day feel great. This will definitely help motivate me to work on it this break... "wow, people actually do look at it!"... :)
Last night Mom and Dad cooked a wonderful steak dinner as well, and even though there was a little family friction about some stuff, we actually sat at the table after dinner and talked about it. I love it when we can calmly talk about things!
And after folks took a break from each other (we broke off and did different things - my parents and I watched a movie - The Man Who Came to Dinner) we all re-gathered at 11 or so and sang carols and did our advent ritual of picking ornaments for the felt wreath. I shocked everyone by picking the ballerina (hey! the Nutcracker was good!)
I think I might finally be giving up my other Christmas anxiety about not feeling excited enough for the big day. It's been a long process, but I think I've discovered a happy medium. Let myself feel what I want to. I used to think I should always have that kiddish glee, even when I got older. People always say that you should try and stay young... (in some ways :) But that doesn't mean you should force yourself.
HEY! I'm done with work until January 4th! Holy cow!
Jp
You can't recapture that feeling you had about Christmas when you were a kid. We were talking about that last night. That sort of feeling just isn't there anymore. Lots of things take its place, though: watching a friend or relative open a gift you bought them that they love, contributing to a charity, listening to "Silent Night" at church, curling up with a good Christmas book.
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